Thursday, April 21, 2016

Q - Quiet





She had heard the cliché so many times before, but she really understood the statement now. The silence was indeed deafening. The only sound in the house was from the aquarium, the sound of running water. It was supposed to be soothing, but it was irritating her. And then the voices in her head were becoming too loud in the quietness of her home.

'Everybody else seems to have something to do, but I have turned out to be nothing'

'Shall I join a university? Study? I will be busy atleast..but do we have enough money?'

'I am losing my independence. Oh God, why cant my life be like Ramya's? She goes to work, she earns money, she goes shopping, she is so free and I am so not.'

'Am I useless? Yes, I am. I do nothing. Just sit in the house, cook, eat, and while my time away, and wait for him to come home.'

'What will I answer his Kaku when she asks me what I am upto, again ? What will people think of me? What must be my friends thinking about me ?'

These thoughts raged a war in her head. Every single day. She questioned her very existence. What value was she adding to this world ? It killed her from inside that she was being left behind in whatever race this world was in.

Then something changed. She was home, as usual, TV blaring in the background, but her mind trying to rake up yet another war of thoughts. Some conversation that happened a long time ago kept coming back to her. It didn't have any relevance to what she was undergoing right now, but for some reason, it kept surfacing and overpowered the negative emotion.

"Oh how I envy you! I so love to cook but I never get the time and patience to cook the exotic dishes that you make. My job and Aroo take up all my time."

It suddenly dawned on her, out of the blue that each one of us want different things from this world. And it is most of the times what others have and we do not. She was craving for a job that she didnt have and her friend was craving for time to pursue her passion. Its like the theory of the circle. If you are inside the circle, you want to be out. If you are outside, you want to be inside. Everyone has a chance to build their own story. All they have to do is use what they have.

In her case, it was time.

She found her answer. She would no longer fret about her not having a job. Instead she would spend time understanding what gave her happiness, exploring her interests and finding ways to keep herself productive. She would build an interesting story, not something filled with self pity and repentance.

Suddenly her mind cleared and everything became quiet. And strangely, she seemed to like it.








14 comments:

  1. People don't appreciate quiet as much as they should :)

    Joy @ The Joyous Living

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    1. So true! You just have to know how to quiet your mind.

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  2. I love this! Not everyone's lives are the same, and that's a good thing. It's an odd feeling when someone we envy turns out to envy us. I've been there before.

    You've been mobbed!

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    1. Exactly! We most of the times do not realize we are way better off. What we always see is the gaping hole of "I-don't-have-this'.

      I didn't know about this mobbing concept! Its such a huge encouragement. Thank you !

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  3. Great post. It's when we're quiet that we find clarity.

    G. R. McNeese from
    Project Blacklight

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    1. Thank you GR! Couldn't agree more..

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  4. Sometimes quiet is the best medicine. I love a little quiet.

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    1. I love it too. Though I find it hard to shut my mind. Thanks for visiting Jen.

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  5. J here, of the #atozchallenge Arlee Bird's A to Z Ambassador Team. Tonight, YOU have been #COMMENTMOBBED with love from #azchat.
    How has the challenge been going for you so far? Are you meeting your goals of posting and hopping to other blogs? 3/4 of the way done!
    My blog's giveaway is still going. I'm encouraging everyone to visit more stops.
    http://jlennidornerblog.what-are-they.com
    Great reasons to write! I enjoyed this.
    I remember when I "left to be with the outsiders," finding out just how loud the rest of the world is. (Or the world I was tossed into-- I found quiet places when I traveled later.) Then, getting to go back to visit my people, the silence at night was unnerving.

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    1. hello J ! Being #Commentmobbed is great and very very encouraging ! How can I participate in this ? Thank you so much for visiting.

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  6. Fab piece. Sometimes over thinking just makes everything worse!
    Debbie

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    1. Thank you Debbie! Yes, we do complicate things sometimes and quiet is what we need to clear things out.

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  7. In this exam called life. We try to copy others and fail. We dont realize that everyone has a different question paper. :)

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